After coming back to Japan from the US, I often recall the memories of the William and Mary, Washington D.C. and all the people I met and saw there. The perception of them may changed after the experience this cross border program. Then I want to talk about the perception of the US in some aspects.

First, I can saw the society of the US. Before visiting Washington D.C., my perception of it was very different from the real. Washington D.C. is the capital city of the US, so I thought that there are many government officers or business persons in the center of the city and there are many office buildings which has 30 floors or so. People are busy with their jobs and city works all day long, for it is the center city of the US. However, the real situation is very different. The thing which surprised me the most was the closing time of the shops. First day of staying in Washington DC, we had free time in the evening. We walked around to go to the white house and the Washington memorial and thinking of eating out but most of the restaurant has closed at 9:00 pm except bars. And in the daytime, there are so many tourists in the city but I couldn’t see the view of business person who go to lunch in the noon. In Tokyo, the capital city of Japan, many office workers come from the building all at once to go to lunch. The Japanese embassy staff said that Americans get up early and go home early while Japanese get up late and go home late so the shops adapt each life styles. It was very interesting because the working style of American is more efficient than Japan’s I think. Business person can’t spend much time with their families and we always care about the last train in Japan. It is a so vicious circle that we should follow America’s example to live a healthier life and spend more time with our family.

Also, I felt keenly the gap between the rich and the poor in Washington D.C.. In Washington D.C., there are many expensive brand shops, museums, expensive restaurants and luxurious hotels. While there are so many people who hold the paper in which says “give me money” or the people who sound money to attract attention of the passerby. They don’t do anything but waiting alms. I was surprised the number of them. There are less people like that in Tokyo. Further more many stallkeeper near the museums and memorials. They try to sell T shirts or souvenirs to tourists. They have money but they don’t have jobs which provide a regular income. So I afraid to go outside in the night. I think Washington D.C. is less safer than Tokyo. It must be a problem of America. The gap between the rich and the poor become wider and wider. To solve this problem, the government should try to increase the employment and care about the poor. The capital city can take the lead in decreasing the gap.

They are my perception of Washington D.C. and the most shocking impression of this visiting the US.

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Journal 5

Most important thing I learned is the importance of cooperation with other people. In this program, I worked on Focus Group presentation about American various things. The worked of this is very hard. Before this program, we prepared for this presentation in Japan. We decided to research for the difference and similarity of Japanese Mega chain stores and American stores. We picked up on two examples to show the difference and similarity of Japanese Mega Chain stores and American ones. These two examples are Starbucks and McDonald`s. In Japan, we researched for many things about the difference and similarity of Japanese Starbucks and American one. And researched for many things about the difference of Japanese McDonald’s and American one. For example, menu, calorie, the number of shops, location, service, target, type of customers and so on. However, It was very difficult to collect material about there difference. And, It was also difficult to reach conclusion. In this serious situation, we managed to finished pre-Focus Group presentation in Japan. I thought that the preparation of Focus Group presentation in America was very hard work. In America, we started to research for the difference and similarity of Japanese Mega Chain store and American one with my Focus Group members and Jonathan. Jonathan helped us to research for the topic of Focus Group many times. If he would not help us to research, our presentation did not became very nice thing. In America, I researched for the similarity between Japanese Starbucks and American one. For example, service, location, target. In the research of service, I have difficulty in trouble researching. That is because an advance expectation is very far from real situation. First,we thought that Japanese Starbucks are different from American Starbucks. We thought that the service of Japanese Starbucks is polite. In contrast, we thought that American Starbucks emphasize on turnover. However, American Starbucks resembles American one very much. In conclusion, American and Japanese Starbucks emphasize on connection between Starbucks and customers. The way which make this fact clear is interview to the worker of American Starbucks. In the interview, the worker told us the fact that American Starbucks emphasize on connection between Starbucks and customers. According to the interview, the workers of Starbucks always pay attention to help customers relax time in the shop. For example, workers often talk with customers to be friendly. The behavior of these workers show their will that make customers comfortable in shops. Of course, Japanese Starbucks emphasize on the service which make customers happy too. Thanks to this interview, I could reveal the fact that American Starbucks resembles Japanese one. In interview, we divided our roles to each group members. Thanks to this, we did nice interview. I thought that our good Focus Group presentation due to cooperation with other members. If I prepared for presentation at alone, presentation did not become goog thing. So, I thought that Most important thing I learned is the importance of cooperation with other people

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Journal 5 overall impressions

This is my fiirst my experience of traveling abroad, so my image of America is abstract.Before I participate in this program (on July) ,I am nervous.

I wonder whether I can make myself understood in English and my English can work.

And My concerns are many. About food. In general, American food is said to be fatty.

So I wonder whether the food in America is to my taste.

And about human relationships. I wonder whether I can get along with Keio University students and William and Mary College students.

So one day before going to Japan, I am a little sick because of my nerves.

On August 2, the day when I arrived at America,my feelings changed completely.

The scale was so large, and I noticed that the scale of each building was so big.

I was so impressed. And I was moved when what I want to say is understood in English at Dulles Airport. It was my first experience.

And I went to the dormitory, I met my roommate Jonah Abraham. In my first impression,

I was afraid of him.

But he was so nice. He told me some American cultures. And I told him some Japanese cultures. For example, in Japan, we say “Itadakimasu” before I eat meal.

“Itadaki” means both the respect of food and nature and eating meal. “Masu means the respect of food.

He was very interested in my story. So I was so happy.

And on August 3rd, my dialogue class started. I wondered whether I can understand the content of the class, because my dialogue class is green( the cleverest class). But it was all right. If I have a question about the content of the class, I can ask my teacher at any time. And my teacher Jennie answered very kindly. And the atmosphere of my dialogue class is very friendly. It was too much fun.

And my focus group work started. The teacher of our group is Stephanie. And she was so nice. And she brought us to lunch and dimmer. The food of the all shops which Stephanie brought us to was so good.

And in terms of studying , she and our another teacher Kanah taught me how to make a presentation and the content of the presentation.

So when we made a presentation, the quality of our presentation was very high. Kanah taught me about the content of the presentation. We made a presentation on June 20th, but it involved much incorrect information. She corrected me a lot in terms of information. And the powerpoints was very good. Stephanie taught me how to make powerpoints. So the quality of our presentation was much higher than that In July.

So the content of our presention was perfert thanks to their help.

The only thing which we regret was the reflection of the questions. We didn’t answer the questions confidently.

Anyway, we did our presentation very well.

In addition to studying, we enjoyed in my life in Williamsburg.

The atmosphere of Williamsburg was very calm. And people in Williamsburg were very calm. I thought that Williamsburg was a very good town.

And after moving to Washignton D.C, I also enjoyed my life. On the first day when we went to Washignton D.C, I was surprised at the scale of the Washignton D.C.

The tower was so high. The building was so big.

And I went to Smithsonian Museums. I went to Indian Museum, Space Museum, American National Museum. The most interesting museum was Indian Museum.

I entered the Keio University Faculty of Law, by taking the test of English, World History and Thesis. I passed the entrance exam thanks to World History. In this way, I was interested in World History, and I was interested in the history of the Indians, so it was so fun.

And we rode on the subway in Washignton D.C. The subway in America was much smaller but much less crowded than that in Japan.

The train intervals were very long. So we sometimes waited for the trains for a long time.

And the shops were great. We went to Mc Donald’s in America. The taste was as delicious as that of Japan. But the size of the burger was much larger.

And we went to Chics, where we can eat grilled chicken. And it was delicious.

The last day ,we went by ourselves. It was a completely freeday. We went to St John’s Church. The atmosphere was very solemn.

And we went to Indiana Jone’s Museum. I have watched the movie Indiana Jone’s in the movie theater in Japan. So it was fun.

And we went to Georgetown, where there are many shops.We bought many souvenirs for friends in Tokyo. And at night on the last day, we did a talent show.

I participated in the talent show. Jonah asked me to participate in the talent show. Jonah and all boys participated in the talent show. We played the “Heavy Rotation ,AKB48”

It was so fun. And everybody laughed.

And the other participants did dancing , singing , or so. All of it was great. We communicated a lot with foreign students. And I knew their contacts for example, LINE, Facebook, and Skype.

I want to keep in touch with them, after coming back to Japan.

Overall, the acquisition which I got in this program were many. First, the ability to speak English. I had got a lot of chances to speak English. So I spoke English a lot.

And I want to communicate with them from now. And I hope to inprove my English.

And the culture and sight of Americans. Until I went to America, I never learned the sight of foreigners. I saw many buildings, and learned that Japan was a very small country. So after now, I want to go to several countries, see many wonderful buildings and museums, and learn a lot of things.

I want to say “Thank you” to all the people who helped me.

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Journal 5

I learned a lot of things in William & Mary program. At first, I interested only in American music. But I learned that American music is related closely with racial problem or civil right problem. So this program gave me a chance to have interest in American history.

I learned a lot of things not only in lecture but also in daily life. There were many different point between Japanese and American people. For example, behavior toward other people. The experiences I had in Washington DC was really differ from the experiences in Williamsburg.(Of course both of them were so fun and I enjoyed so much.) I felt that the biggest different point was the atmosphere of the city and I think that the difference came from the kindness of the people. In Williamsburg, most of the people were always smiling and looked that they had inner reserves. On the other hand, in Washington DC, all the people looked that they had something to do and could not afford to worry about other people. But I think, even in Washington DC, it is better than Tokyo. In Tokyo, people never talk to person that they don’t know. People don’t smile if they met someone’s gaze. Sometimes, people don’t open the door for the person behind them. We think that it is strange to have communication with strangers. But I became to think that it is strange to ignore all the people around us. I learned a lot of things from noticing this. I can say thank you when people show me some kindness to me. I can hold door open for the next person. I can speak to people who is in trouble.

And preparation of presentation was also so worthwhile for me. Through presentation work, we faced a problem. When we discuss, discussion always heat up too much. It was almost like argument. At first, in Japan, when I faced to the situation, I always said nothing. Of course I had my own opinion, but I thought that if all of us say our each opinion selfishly, the discussion would be more and more confused, so I always told myself to be calm. But in America, we have presentation work almost every day and it became difficult for me to control my emotion. I thought that I want to say “that is wrong” to the opinion which I think is wrong. Then, I talk to other group member and find that they think the same way as me. When I found that, I noticed that if everyone has own different opinion, it is really wasteful to hide them, we have to know every one of the members opinion and discuss them to make better presentation and relationship between us. So I changed my mind to say what I think every time. We had argument to the very end, but our group atmosphere changed and we became able to laugh at last if we heard severe opinion.

William & Mary program was my first trip to foreign country, so there were many hard point to spend two weeks in new environment, but I learned so many things and they will be really useful in my life in Japan. I want to say thank you to all of the participant to this program who helped me to have matured.

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Firstly, I would like to say “Thank you” to the people who concerned this program. For me, Keio University/College of William & Mary Cross-Cultural Collaboration Program was amazing. I think that the memory of this program will never forgotten by myself.

In this program, my purposes were learning English skills, getting a visual field and understanding about difference culture. I think that I almost achieved the goal except learning English skills. I knew about my poor English skills, but it was beyond my imagination. I could take a communication by gesture, but I could not take it by English. I wrote “I could take a communication by gesture”, but I think it because everyone were kind. I thought that I must learn English hard.

About getting visual field, in this program, I was affected by visiting the Japanese Embassy in Washington. We could listen to the Ministry of Education official and the Ministry of Foreign Affairs official. The conversations were astounding for me, because I had never met a people like them. I had an interest in the Ministry of Foreign Affairs which he is working.

About understanding difference culture, I could deepen my understanding by touching a different culture. I knew American history and cultural generally before this program, but the knowledge was deeper by the lecture and study training. They were very interesting. Especially, the Smithsonian Institution was wonderful. I went American history museum and modern art museum. In American history museum, there was many historical records, and in modern art museum, there was anger to gender discrimination in Islam.

Next, I would like to write about my perception of US. My thought did not change about US before and after this program. On the other hand, I could reconfirm US’s good point. Before participate this program, I thought that US people are cheerful. It was not error, It was right. Every people who I met in US were nice. Thanks to them, I was able to spend fantastic days in this program.

Then, I would like to write about the most important thing which I get. It is friend. The beginning of this program, I worried because there is not acquaintance and I cannot speak English. Now, I can say that was a groundless. The members of Keio University students were characteristic and delightful, and the members who are the College of William & Mary were very kind. So, I could become good friends and I am very glad it. Furthermore, I think that I could learn a lot of thing by my friends. They were full of humor, life experience was also abundant, and they were something missing for me. They are attractive, so I would like to get along with them in the future.

I miss everyone, I want to meet again everyone soon. For when we next meet, I will study hard English. Until now, I studied English for finding employment and academic achievement. However, from now on, I will study English to talk to many people and become friends. It is major change for me. Therefore, I cannot wait for October.

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Entry 5

Considering going to the U.S., I had a few questions about it. It is generally said that the United States is a multi-cultural nation and they express themselves more explicitly than in Japan. Or there is also a well-acknowledged statement that they are more individualistic, while Japanese people are rather collectivistic. Are they generally true? If not, in what kind of special case can they be the case? These problems had been of particular interest to me, looking so complex with various elements that I wanted to unthread the complication. I have not discovered the answers yet, probably I can never ultimately, for the whole country is too broad and the number of people is too large to generalize, but I got some clues in this program, which derived from the overall impression.

First of all, articulacy was in fact very important, which I can say from experience. However, it was not so clearly observed at first. This time the community consisted of mostly Japanese students with which some Americans were mingled, so local students had to adapt to Japanese community rather than Japanese to American community. Consequently, I could barely see some scenes enough to catch it, but, after all, it was really interesting.

An example is like the following: one Japanese student, asked what kind of food he preferred that night, replied that he was going to follow others’ opinions and did not say his preference. One of the PAs said it was okay to express his opinion here. A couple of similar things happened. In Japan, on the contrary, I suppose it is some kind of virtue to restrain self-expression and give the first priority to maintaining harmony. Although it is always crucially important to keep harmony anywhere, the balance between them seemed rather different.

In addition, I tried to find out whether people in the U.S. were really individualistic. Unfortunately I could hardly see whether for the same reason.

From cultural points of view, one of the most impressive things was food. Food served in restaurants was much more salty or sweeter in most cases, and the quantity was larger. I had started to like it, and for a while after coming back to Japan, I kept on eating the same kind of food even in Japan, which might harm my health but was tempting. On the other hand, Japanese food has subtler flavor, putting emphasis on quality.

What I would still like to learn is about U.S. history. I had limited knowledge on it, though I wrote 3-page summary on the Civil War as part of the preliminary seminar in Japan. Perhaps as a consequence, I could scarcely grasp at what was exhibited in history section at Smithsonian Museum. Studying history would give me better understanding of the questions raised in the first part.

What I earned as an insight other than those was the fact that people in the U.S. used more positive language than in Japan. For example, store staffs often said, “have a good day” when finished, an equivalent expression of which does not exist in Japan. In fact, the direct translation of that phrase would give strange feelings, because it would sound too exaggerated. Furthermore, buses running around Smithsonian Museums showed the destination and the phrase “have a good day” alternately, which I was so interested to see. These kind of positive expressions can be taken as indication of people’s positive attitudes. I felt that it would be better to incorporate even a little of them into everyday lives in Japan, where explicit positive remarks are relatively a few. Of course some of these features may be attributed to linguistic characteristics, those words sounded pleasant, to be honest.

Finally, the program was really enjoyable. I experienced a lot that cannot be in Japan. What I caught at the program had definitely positive effect on my life as well as my personality. I am really looking forward to the chance of studying in the U.S. not too far in the future and not too short in period.

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Journal 5

Even though almost three weeks have passed since we finished this program and came back to Japan, my great memories of this program so clearly that I can remember someone’s words or expressions. For me, this program is important and valuable because I learned a lot of things through this program.


To begin, through academic activities: Framework Lectures, Dialogue Classes, and Focus Group Work, I learned that the United States of America has not only go-ahead mind, but also, at the same time, has conservative one, especially, in the terms of culture and actual lives. First, this country’s go-ahead mind can be seen in history. Surprisingly, the country is now the biggest country all over the world, although since its independence in 1776, only less than 300 years have passed. I have two lectures that impressed me best.

One is the first Framework Lecture. At the first lecture, we learned that trains made cultures in particular, songs. This would not have happened without the mind of exploring, “manifest destiny”. To the temporary people, the westernization was a kind of the journey to the new world. In Japanese history I have never heard about something like that. Whole in Japan has been created in a so long term, the United States has been created so rapidly: went through some tough times of wars, revolution, and innovative improvement. Flowing these historical events, its people also have become to have unique perspectives such as the hope for the new world and lives, flexible ways of thinking, and go-ahead minds. Therefore, I was so impressed and at the same time, convinced that these perspectives of the United States have made the country the United States of America.

The other lecture that impressed me best is that about the American popular culture. In the lecture and Dialogue Class after that, I learned that culture is kind of “differences” from another society. It meant that these differences identify the people in the society and are the means of telling from another. Not until did I learn, I had never though deeply about what culture is, so the lecture was very interesting and a lot of fun. In addition, I realized that such identities are important for development and spread of culture. Also, I came up with the idea that this is how the nation of the United States was created.


Even though I can admire the aspect I mentioned above, the United States has also sad or controversial aspect. It is about race. Since the United States has the history of slavery and racial discrimination. What is worse is that it is s not so long ago, and that is why the issue still remains big one even nowadays. I though that I knew about the issue because I had studied about it since I was in junior high school in classes of history. However, now I believe that just learning and knowing is so different from actually feeling. All the people, not only professors but also my Dialogue Class teacher, seemed to have adequate knowledge about the issue and strong and solid opinions following such knowledge. They are very interesting and impressive tome. Though their opinions were very different, the common was that they are absolutely against the discrimination. The most words that my teacher told us was “There is only ONE RACE in the world”. I believe that this thought is right the key to resolve this issue. On the contrary, Japanese students are not as familiar to this kind of issue as those in the United States. It might be because Japan has not so much history of discrimination, anyway we have to focus on it more. As the world is getting more and more global, the concrete opinion based on adequate knowledge is necessary. I learned this from lectures and Dialogue classes.


In Washington D.C., I learned a lot as well as in Williamsburg. The most impressive experience to me was the visit to the monuments and memorials, in particular, those about the W.W.Ⅱ. Even in Japan, I had few experiences at such places about war, maybe because I had been trying to avoid looking at and thinking of the history. However, when I visited there, I felt many kinds of things. Although it is very difficult to describe them clearly and in detail, I think I could realize what these memorials are for and what should people visited there are suppose to do, somewhat. When I was there, it occurred to me what people involved are hoping for us living nowadays: the peace. Even if it is very ordinary, I felt it by heart, not by my brain. Without visiting there I would remain not understanding it actually. Moreover what we have to do from now is to always keep trying to find the way to peace in real meaning, as not a person in a country, but also as one member of the Earth.



Through this program, I leaned a lot such as the perspectives in the United States, or war and peace. All the things did not I realized if I had not joined this program and listen to and talk with many people and actually felt many things. Therefore this is great experience to me, however, it must not be the last but the beginning. I have to keep try to experience such thing.

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Journal entry5

The cross-cultural program of Keio and Williams and Marry gave us a lot of great memories and knowledge and it allowed me to really understand about the United States. These experiences are something irreplaceable and surely it will be my lifetime treasure.

How my impression of the United States changed
My impression of the United States did change a bit. I lived in New York when I was 9 to 12 years old, and went to a local school. Where I lived was a place with a lot of Japanese and the majority of people living there were Caucasian. I had never been with people from this many origins, and it was very nice to be able to work at a place with variety of different types of people.
Also, during the stay, I had several times where I could not understand what people were saying, when people had different accents and using English as there second language like us. Before this stay, I thought that people in the United States were all good English speakers. I realized that there are many people who are poor at English in the United States, and that there are many people who can’t speak English. I thought depending what I want to do in the future, I should learn other languages too, such as Spanish.

How I changed during the stay
As you know, in most Japanese people share the same origin and we look quite the same and we are expected to think the same way. What I found fascinating was how people living in the United States liked who they were, and they also approved of different types of people naturally. We can see these kinds of American spirits in many songs like Katy perry’s song, “fire work”. Not many songs in Japan uses being yourself and how it’s a good thing for a theme in a song. This is why I think I was able to talk about my thoughts freely than in Japan, and I think many of the Keio students thought the same way too. I think we Japanese should try to be more like Americans, liking and expressing ourselves freely.

What I what to learn more
To my surprise, my favorite place we visited during our entire stay in the United States was church. I believe in God, but to be honest I do not believe in any religion, and it was the very first time to attend church. I think this experience at the church was something really new to me and I was fascinated. Having a time to be thankful for what we have, and caring about the weak and poor ones, this is what I thought what I also wanted in my life. I want to know more about the different types of church and what kind of role it is playing in the American culture.
After I came back to Japan I told my younger sister, who goes to a Protestant school in Japan about my experience at church. She was surprised how her the church which I went to had a lot of signings compared to the church she is attending. I believe there are many differences between churches in Japan and in the United States, so I would also like to know the differences of church between countries.

Thanks to this program I was able to make my summer something special. I was able to realize my poor English ability and it gave me the motivation to work on improving it. This program could not have been this great without the help staffs at Williams and Marry. We really appreciated It all.


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Journal 5

Three weeks have passed since I come back to Japan. These days, I really miss our great days in Williamsburg and Washington. It was just hard to cure jet lag even, but I went to Japanese nursing home to volunteer. I was suffered from jet lag as expected, furthermore I fell asleep with old men. Anyway my first living abroad became very nice experience in some meanings.

I want to talk about living in the USA, studying at an American college, my special persons in William & Mary University, and somethings I learned in the USA.


First, I was surprised at American life. In Japan, it is usual that there is an “Otohime” in a bathroom. “Otohime” is a machine to erase sound of excretion, and Japanese shy people use “Otohime” when they excrete. This awareness helps me to say that many Japanese are shy.

Additionally, when I took a walk in the William & Mary University in one morning I felt there was large as same as a city in Tokyo. In other words many of American places are very large. For example a room in the dorm, roads, parks in Washington, meals, and any more. I thought they represent the American dream.

To talk actively to my friends makes my English skills better. I didn’t be fear to speak English because I tried to use English as much as possible. That is my goal to studying abroad, so I feel sense of accomplishment.


Second, studying in an American college makes me something new. Just studying other place in Japan is strange, but in America, I was driven my curiosity and feel that I can do everything. We have been studying something through looking from only Japan and we didn’t know that how do American people think anything about history, international situation, or war. So studying in American college became very important experience.


Third, I want to talk about my special persons. I love everyone of this program, but I will talk about persons especially I appreciate to. Our program leader Kristina always think and care us. For example, she made American sweets for us. That was really delicious enough to heal tiredness of studying and working with focus group and she extended limit time of our journal. If she isn’t our program leader, I couldn’t rest or finish anything.

Erica is PA of my focus group. Her mother is Japanese, so she had lived in Japan, Tottori. She is old as same as me and my room in dorm was next to her room, this is the reason why we got along with each other soon. Erica said she is always mess, but because she works very hard, our focus group’s project could be perfect. And when I arrived at Dulles International airport I got a message from Erica, she said “You are truly a good friend.”

And Khanh, our dialogue class leader, she always speaks English so clear that we could understand lectures. Everyone of Red group loves her because she was always kind to us and teach us something new. I liked her gesture trying to touch high place! (But always she couldn’t.)


I hope this program will be continued forever. Thank you everyone and encountering this program.

Someday I will go to Williamsburg!

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It is hard to believe that it has already passed more than one month since I first arrived in the United States. However, strangely enough, I feel that the days which I spent there were in the distant past, at the same time. I even wonder if the memories were just about some events which had happened only in my dreams! I mean that my participation in this program has been an extremely big and extraordinary event for me. I really appreciate all of the people, who have been involved in this year’s Cultural Collaboration Program. Especially, people in College of William and Mary, such as directors, CIs and SAs kindly helped me a lot and I already miss them so much. By the way, I am going to talk about the most important thing that I have learned in this final journal, but it might seem to be kind of a negative stuff. At first, I was planning to pretend that I was always happy in those days, but I changed my mind. I decided to be honest and write about what I really felt during the program because I expected that I can learn more and make the most of the experiences by facing up to the minus side of my feelings. But please remember that I am writing this journal with a lot of positivity. To tell the truth, I was not always happy there and what prevented me from being happy was probably my inferiority complex. Before I joined this program, I had confidence in my English to some extent, for I am good at reading English text and allowed to take advanced classes for English at Keio University. I could sufficiently deliver what I wanted to talk about during the interview test for this program which was carried out in English, too. However, when I first arrived in the United States, I could not communicate with the local people maybe because I was nervous and upset with the new surroundings a little. And at the same time, I saw some Keio students who were trying to speak English as much as they can.  I got shocked at this situation and my confidence in English had gradually gone. Since then, I chose not to speak my opinion which seems to be difficult to express in English. It was very hard time for me because I did not know how I can deal with my sense of inferiority.  Fortunately, some people in my focus group and dialogue group patiently encouraged me to speak more, so, at last, I was able to pluck up my courage and attempted to communicate more in English on last few days. I cannot help feeling fear when I imagine the case without their big and friendly help. After I came back to Japan, I have thought about why I lost confidence and felt inferior to others so easily, and came up with one reason: I do not have any special skills or talents, so I have difficulty keeping steady confidence. However, I think that I can make up my own specialty and have a sense of identity from now on. In order to achieve this, it would be essential to know myself more such as what I am good at or what I like to do. At last, I want to quote one of the wise sayings of Thomas Jefferson, who graduated from College of William and Mary. “Do you want to know who you are? Don’t ask. Act! Action will delineate and define you.” Now, I am looking for what I can challenge next time.

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